Don’t Quite Fit In

Sometimes I feel like I don’t belong here. Sometimes I feel like I don’t fit in today’s society. Sometimes I feel like I don’t fit in the current generation. I just feel like I’m too different from everyone else. I feel older than everyone else. I don’t know how else to describe it. I just don’t quite fit in.

I’m a young man with an older mind than everyone else around me. I’m 22 years old but I feel like I have the mind of a 45 year old man. 45 years old is not old by any means, but to me it feels that way a little bit when it comes to my generation. I look at today’s society and I can’t help but feel like I’m not supposed to be here. At least that’s how I feel at certain times. Whenever I would watch movies from the past, I would love almost every minute of it. When it comes to modern movies, I would feel 50/50 about them. Whenever I would listen to classic songs, I would love every second of it. When it comes to modern music, again I would feel 50/50 about them. Is that weird or what?

Whenever I would socialize with people my age or a little bit younger, I would feel like I would have a connection with a couple of them but not everyone mainly because of the differences in personalities. I feel like they would be shocked at how I speak with total manners and be very respectful to them. Maybe because they’re not use to that kind of behavior in today’s world. Sounds pretty sad to be honest. They’re use to crazy behaviors and little manners. Some people appreciate my good manners, while others do not. I know when a person doesn’t appreciate respectful behavior. It sickens me at times but at the end of the day that’s just life. Can’t please everyone.

I can mostly have conversations with older people as they actually love the fact that I treat them with respect. You must treat EVERYONE with respect. They at least appreciate that. I feel like people nowadays don’t appreciate it. Not everyone, but some. That’s another reason why I don’t fit in with my generation. Maybe it’s not “cool” to show others respect. I don’t know. Whenever I show an older person respect, not only do they appreciate it but most of them would look at me and say, “Man, it’s nice to see some younger people like yourself who actually has manners. They’re hard to come by these days.” Isn’t that sad or what?

No matter what I do, I don’t think I would ever fit in with my generation. If that’s the case, then so be it. It’s me being me. Shane being Shane. Shane’s too nice. Shane’s too polite. Shane’s too respectful. That’s the way it’s gonna be.